letter to my body:

Dear body!

I hate that you have acne sometimes. 
I hate that you gain weight in parts where I don't want it. 
I hate that you hurt sometimes and don't work the way I command you to and interfere with my life.
I hate that you are hairy.
I hate that you force me into doing things I do not enjoy.
I hate some of your scars.
I hate that some parts of you fold and wrinkle in strange ways.
I hate that you don't fit into some clothes. 

I love that you find ways to keep me healthy.
I love that you make me feel sexy sometimes. 
I love that you show me my limits and protect me. 
I love that you tell a history and remind me of my past.
I love that you carry me to the most wonderful places.
I love that you are stronger than I reckon most of the time.
I love that you remind me about the really important things in life on a regular basis. 
I love that you surprise me. 
I love that you are unique in your own way. 

I hate that I don't listen to you most of the time.
I hate that I have to inspect you every time I pass a mirror. 
I hate that I can never satisfied with you. 
I hate that I compare you to other bodies.
I hate that I talk bad about you every day.
I hate that I let you suffer sometimes as well.
I hate that I am not taking proper care for you sometimes.

But after all I love that you allow me to feel pain. 
And I love that you give me the opportunity to look at my weird flaws like redness, wrinkles or scars.
Most of all need I say that am I proud of you and love you for existing for me even though I do not treat you that way sometimes. And I miss the times when we weren't separated by thoughts and you and me felt like one... 

I once had all of these hateful thoughts stuck in my brain and felt like writing it down. It then took me a long time to write these loving points down and come up with what I actually like about my body. I wanted to share these things with you to make you think about your body and your relationship with it or so that you maybe feel like you can relate with what I am feeling and not feel alone anymore. Try being more appreciative with what your body allows you to do and do not limit your thoughts to what seems to be or go wrong. Work on your relationship with your body every day and try finding peace instead of fighting this huge part of yourself.

„my spring – pie“

This recipe is all about seasonal and regional ingredients. Besides the fact that a sunny Saturday morning in Spring couldn’t possibly be more relaxed and well spent better than on a stroll through the farmers market, I prefer buying seasonal and regional for several reasons.

A version of this recipe in the German language is also available on the blog of https://klimareporter.in

ingredients for the pesto:

  • 20 leaves of wild garlic
  • 100ml olive oil
  • 2 tbsp of mustard
  • 1 tbsp of agave syrup

instructions for the pesto:

  • cut the wild garlic in fine stripes
  • mix all of the above mentioned ingredients in your kitchen-aid, smoothie maker oder with an electric six mixer until it results in a thick fluid

ingredients for the pie:

  • 250g fresh spinach
  • 1 leek
  • 2 carrots
  • 2 parsnips
  • 1 can of white beans
  • your home made wild garlic pesto
  • salt and dried herbs of choice (I recommend using a herb-salt mixture plus oregano and cumin)
  • quiche dough (I mostly use store bought vegan quiche dough)


  • cut the carrots and parsnips into thin circles and chop the leek into tiny pieces
  • ferment the carrots and parsnips with 1 tbsp of olive oil on medium heat and with the lid on for about 5 minutes (they are ready when sticking a fork in one of them works smoothly)
  • set the carrots and parsnips aside and sauté the leek in a pan with some herb seasoned-salt on medium to high heat
  • add the washed spinach leaves and 2 tbsp of water to the leek
  • let the spinach „collapse“, which takes normally approximately 2 minutes with a closed lid
  • now add the can of white beans and season with some more herb seasoned-salt, cumin and dried oregano
  • preheat the oven to 180-200 degrees celsius
  • cover your baking dish with baking sheets and place the already prepared dough on top of it (you can either prepare a homemade one in advance or use a vegan „quiche and tarte-dough“
  • as basic layer spread the carrots and parsnips all over your dough
  • top the first layer with the spinach-bean-leek mixture and douse it with the wild garlic-pesto
  • fold the remaining dough on the sides into the middle and splash some water on the top of the dough
  • Bake your quiche or pie in the oven for 35 minutes with 180-200 Celsius degrees
  • enjoy your pie warm (and possibly also a glass of white wine)

protein pancakes with berry topping:

My relationship with sweet food is quite obvious.

ingredients for the pancake:

  • 100g flour
  • 150g oat meal/oat pulp
  • 30g oat flakes
  • 1 tsp baking soda
  • 1 tsp vanilla sugar
  • 260g bananas (two medium sized ones)
  • 200ml oat milk
  • 50ml mineral water
  • 100ml maple syrup
  • 3tbsp of melted plant based butter
  • 2 tbsp vegan protein powder (mine has a vanilla and toffee flavor)

ingredients for the topping:

  • 1 pck frozen berry mix (I used a mix of blueberries and raspberries)
  • 5 tbsp maple syrup
  • a handful of cashew nuts
  • 20g butter


  • mix the ingredients for the pancake dough with a hand whisk
  • fry the pancake in a pan with only a little bit of oil on medium heat and flip sides over as soon as a few bubbles appear on top of the pancake
  • meanwhile mix 2 tbsp of maple syrup with 20g of plant based butter in a pan on high heat
  • reduce the heat a little and add approximately one handful of cashews
  • stir occasionally and let the mixture thicken to caramelize the cashews
  • after 3 minutes remove the cashews form the oven and let them cool off
  • let the frozen berry mix defrost in a pan on medium heat with 3 tbsp of maple syrup and occasional string
  • in the end pile the pancakes up and add the toppings

fluffy bread:

Bread and butter. Even as a small child I loved the simplest dish I can think of, fresh bread with butter. Well, nowadays I make homemade bread and only use plant based butter, but the taste of this classic meal is just incomparable.


  • 400ml lukewarm water
  • 1 package dry yeast
  • 180g spelled flour
  • 330g wheat flour
  • dried thyme and dill
  • salt


  • mix the water with the yeast and let it rest for about 7 minutes
  • meanwhile combine all of the dry ingredients and season it with approximately 1 tbsp of each herb and 3 tsp of salt
  • add the water and work the dough with your kitchen aid or your hands (even though I own a pretty cool kitchen machine I prefer to work it with my hands until I reach a thick ball of bread dough)
  • cover the pot with cling film
  • let the dough rest in the warmest room of your flat for 2 hours minimum
  • shift the risen dough into a baking pan of choice
  • cover the top with a little bit of olive oil and add cuttings to the top of the dough
  • bake the bread for about 35 minutes with 180-200 degrees (until it has reached a thick light brown crust)

my personal experience with the topic of physical health:

Many people, more than you would think or know about, have the burden or the lifelong mission to fight a certain disease without the public recognizing. Sometimes reading of the experience from others is a way to identify and see that other people are experiencing similar struggles in their daily life without us even knowing. This is why I choose to share a few of my thoughts and experiences. I feel like the pandemic, we experienced in the last few months, made health a topic that isn’t that inexpressible anymore and urged a lot of people to think about the physical health of the public, our loved ones and of ourselves. Which is another reason why I decided to share a blog post on physical health from my current state of mind.

Some days people fighting a disease like cancer or who are living with chronicle sicknesses don’t even think of their problems every day and it feels just like living a normal life, despite taking a daily medicine or having a few more doctors appointments. But there are also days, when people experiencing an illness feel like giving up, as if they were defective in a way and are searching for any reason why such a thing would happen to them in particular. It can be consuming, searching for a reason, pondering about how to live happily after all and having a feeling of even being a burden for others. Mostly these very thought influence one mentally in a bad way while it is also physically difficult to handle for the person concerned. It is especially difficult to manage one’s own thoughts when experiencing setbacks in one’s health or when feeling weak and exhausted because of medications or when one’s physical appearance alternates due to certain side effects of new medications. Just to mention a few things some people are going through without you even knowing.

For me personally the thought that everything happens for a reason helps accepting certain things. Believing that my path is made for me specifically and nothing would cross my way if something like destiny wouldn’t think of me as strong enough to deal with it, empowers me. Still there are days I am wondering as well if I really can tackle certain problems and have the strength. Although for a lot of people, this may sound very spiritual, I reckon that there are a lot of different ways to deal with experiencing health issues and every concerned person needs to find its own way of dealing with its disease. Please keep in mind that this only is my personal approach I am sharing.

The main factors of handling a chronicle disease or something like cancer or leukemia is one’s surrounding and the strength and attitude towards life. It is easier to find purpose in living and to not focus too much on one’s sickness and how life would end if the people surrounding you treat you not any different or weak but are still there for you when you are struggling to cope physically or mentally.

I prepared a few things I consider important to know when being confronted with for example a chronically ill person:

  • ask the person something personal when sharing their diagnoses -e.g „How are you feeling right now concerning this certain disease?“
  • don’t doubt what they are sharing with you -e.g. „And the doctors are really sure about that?“ or avoid saying something like „I can’t believe that young people also can experience such a thing!“
  • show interest in their specific case instead of asking general question -e.g. „How has your life been different since the diagnosis?
  • offer your help -e.g. „If you need to talk or someone to pick you up after a doctors appointment, I’d be happy to help you out!“
  • ask a person directly about their well-being instead of addressing others (life partner for instance) in your surroundings -e.g. Avoid this: „Isn’t that pretty difficult having such a disease? (directed at another person but the actually ill one)“ And try saying this instead to the affected person: „I am sure this must have been hard on you.“
  • ask if the person is willing to share a few things and if it’s okay to be curious -e.g. „Is it fine with you to talk about it right now? I am not that familiar with this certain disease.“

Feel free to share personal experiences of yours in the comments or start a conversation with me via the message device in the contact section of the blog as I want this blog to be a space of understanding and personal growth.

golden milk:

During the cold season, especially with a global pandemic still happening, a delicious boost for our immune system is exactly what we need. This recipe contains ingredients that ar anti-inflammatory and provide your body with vitamin c.


  • turmeric (high in vitamin c and anti-inflammatory)
  • cinnamon (highly anti-inflammatory)
  • ginger (contains vitamin c as well)
  • vanilla extract
  • oat milk
  • lemon zest (contains vitamin c and is high in antioxidants)


  • cut 4 streaks of lemon zest (approximately the size 1×3 cm)
  • chop 1 piece of unpeeled and washed ginger (1,5×1,5 cm)
  • bring 350 ml of oat milk to boil a little
  • lower the heat on medium heat
  • add the ginger and lemon zest
  • spice it up with 1 tbsp of turmeric, 1 tsp of cinnamon and a splash of vanilla extract
  • let it boil on low heat for about 10 minutes and stir occasionally
  • filter the milk from the spices and serve warm 🙂

pita with jackfruit:

This is a meal for every occasion, whether you are having friends over or are on the run the whole day and want a prepared lunch to take with you.


  • pita bread
  • rep pepper
  • fresh spinach
  • soy yoghurt
  • 2 cloves of garlic
  • 1 small white onion
  • 1 can of jackfruit
  • salt
  • pepper


  • bake the pita breads in the oven with the instructions on your package
  • cut the onion and the bell pepper into thin stripes
  • for the jackfruit follow the instructions on the can (I roasted the jackfruit on medium heat for about 5 minutes)
  • season the jackfruit with some salt and pepper ( I also added a little bit of cumin)
  • for the yoghurt dip combine 5 tbsp of soy yoghurt with 2 crushed and very small cut cloves of garlic
  • cut the onion and the bell pepper into thin stripes
  • cut the bread open like a kebab (so you can hold it in one hand while filling it with the other)
  • as first layer add the yoghurt sauce and then arrange the spinach, pepper, onion and jackfruit and top again with some yoghurt

mental health

There are those days. Those days when everything just doesn’t feel right or when you just seem to feel nothing at all. I just let it come over me and just lay around doing nothing for a day or two to give my body time to calm down. Let these dark thoughts be and let my limbs feel tired.

But at times when you need to go outside or have to interact with people, on those days it is really easy to be misunderstood and feel overwhelmed. The feeling of projecting my sadness on others makes me feel bad and numb even more. Back when I was in school, I felt awful knowing I had to „perform“ for people in order to not make them feel bad as well. (definitely didn’t work most of the time)

Nowadays, I am really grateful and blessed to just let the days be as they are and that I can take my time to let these feelings come in a safe space at home surrounded by understanding people. I now let the sadness, this heavy feeling of being tired all the time, just come and try accepting these feelings as a part of life sometimes.

Although the tricky part is getting out of this dark place. After one day of just being, I really need to set aspirations for myself, meditate and do something I genuinely enjoy in order to get back to normal. As hard as it sounds, I strongly believe that the only one pulling one out of some kind of depressive episode is oneself, at least this was my experience.

P.S. This is a space, where I share my thoughts and personal experiences. Feel free to comment with your point of view.